— You became a mother to Emily last year. How has this changed the way you approach things?
It has given me the ultimate perspective. Everything stressful, niggly or hard that would have bothered me before doesn't because I have realized that I only have so much energy and time to give, and I want to make sure Emily gets everything she needs from me first, so I have no choice but to instantly let it go or deal with it head-on and move forward. I've become more selective about the work I want to take on, knowing that each project takes me away from spending time with Emily. To be honest, I struggled with guilt getting back into work; I was worried I was sending Emily into care too early, and felt selfish that I wanted to work on personally fulfilling projects instead of watching her grow. I think I have come to terms with it now, understanding that my work does indeed nourish me, and that I bring that energy back into our relationship. But it is an ongoing conversation that I battle with internally. Becoming a mother has made me more sensitive. While making sure I am open enough to read Emily and her needs, I open myself up to the rest of the world at the same time, which can be overwhelming. I also have a profound respect for my body and everything it offers. Motherhood has stretched my deepest and highest emotions and they continue to grow beyond anything I thought possible. It's high voltage, good and bad. I feel pushed to my limits at times and then, bam! I'm like honey again. If anything, it has taught me to surrender and just ride things out.
— What does your home life look like?
Well, right now it's Saturday morning and we've rolled around in bed for an hour, and made each other breakfast. My partner Matt's new playlist is playing, including Betty Davis, Duane Eddy, CAN, and Sonny & the Sunsets. Matt's refreshing the sourdough starter—he makes a new loaf each weekend for us, playing with different grains and flours, never satisfied. Emily is putting all of her teddies into one box and taking them out again. And I'm working—ha! I love the weekends. Time together as a little family has become sacred; knowing we'll never get this time back, we're mindful to make the most of it, as much of a juggle as it all is. We've recently built a new deck off our living area, which is providing a new space for play, fruit trees, and a view over the ranges. We're about to get stuck into our garden, preparing our summer vegetables. I've requested a sunflower patch, so that's my allocated job.
— What is on the horizon for you, creatively and professionally?
Aside from the fourth issue of WAISTand launching a new venture of educational and experiential children's wares, Greta and I just started seriously speaking about putting on a female-only art show in Auckland, so hopefully we can pull this off!