— Your path to healing was both painful and transformational. Can you tell us about your experience?
I do feel that for each of us, the Path of Healing begins at birth. And what we are all seeking is the remembering of the Soul Assignment that magnetized us into the physical body and this Human Journey. But if there is one moment in the timeline of my life that I could look to as a catalyst, it was the Near Death Experience that occurred when I was hit by a speeding car while on my walk to work. 11 years ago, trapped under the hood of the car, catapulted through the air and clinically dead when paramedics found me. After waking up from a coma I was diagnosed with a Traumatic Brain Injury and began a journey of Physical, Occupational and Speech Therapy to awaken my brain to the memory of walking, talking, reading, writing and most challenging of all….social skills!
The first memory I have is of being on the “Other Side.” In a realm that felt very near and adjacent to this physical dimension, then being brought over to this body I inhabit now and being told, “This is the body of La Vonne Natasha Caesar, go in there to complete the work.” I vividly recall the deep resistance and an intuitive knowing that “completing the work” would not be an easily surmountable task! But there is also a momentum that transcends the feeling of choice and a visceral memory of the crown of the head softening and pulling my spirit into this body with a magnetic force. Then there was a flip of perspective and I felt the heaviness of the earthly dimension and of gravity. Weight and density. I always describe this re-entry into the body like diving into a swimming pool only to find that the water has hardened around you and now you are trapped.
I think the archetype of the Shamanic wound or the Wounded Healer is one that is now familiar. We understand the idea of moving through the shadow of the trauma into the triumphant light of our gifts. My journey has definitely embodied this principle. But what else can I expect as a woman carrying the energy of Jaguar Medicine!
— What kind of questions do you ask yourself when working through a blocked phase, or difficult moment?
One of my favorite phrases is, “When in doubt, zoom out!” For me this means to take a step back from it and look at the challenge from a level above. Sometimes we feel we are a mere insignificant red blob on a canvas and forget we are a glorious stroke in the rainbow of a majestic painting, that is, in turn, part of a divine diorama inside a theatrical unfolding. There are so many layers.
— Can you tell us about your lineage, and in what ways you practice (consciously or subconsciously) traditions from your family and heritage?
All my work is Bloodline. The Womb Work is always about ancestry. In the African and Afro Caribbean indigenous healing traditions, there is a teaching that says; to heal you travel through the Womb Space through the bloodline of your Mother and your Mother’s Mother and your Mother’s Mother’s Mother to the First Mother - our Divine Mother. It is in this original Source Space where we all connect as Daughters of Earth. My grandmothers are midwives on both sides. The practice of WombSteaming is one that was taught to me on my first Moon (menstrual cycle) by my aunties and grandmothers. It is a medicine that I carry in my bloodline and ancestry and that returned to my consciousness to heal and support and ground and nurture me on my path to full integration.
The Jaguar Medicine is also in my bloodline and ancestry. My mother was born on the island of Aruba and my father was born in a river on an Amerindian Reservation in the Amazon Basin in the Hinterland area of Guyana, South America. So, I do not have to travel far up the bloodline to arrive at Jaguar Territory.
The first Shaman I saw after the NDE was a woman named Anna Larramendi at The Hollow Bone. She went into trance and told me that I was carrying the Jaguar Energy and that a Jaguar would come to guide, teach and to Initiate me. She referenced a Generational Curse put on my grandfather by a Medicine Man in the Amazon. She did not know that my Father’s Father was a minister who traveled with my father’s family as a missionary to share the gospel of Jesus to the Indigenous tribes of Guyana – this is why my father grew up on the reservation. She thought she was channeling a storyline deep in my history and perhaps even archetypal, but this story and medicine is alive in my blood NOW.
The story did unfold just as she predicted, the Jaguar began to come to me. She would sit with me and we would travel to different time points… It was much later on my path that I was taught that this was a Spontaneous Shamanic Journey…and also that I could control the flow…
— Does your childhood, in any way, inform your ideas and practices that you utilize today?
Yes! I was raised in the most unique way. My parents are both geniuses. My father has a PhD in Hebrew and Semetic Studies and speaks 13 languages. My mother is fluent in Dutch, English, French, Spanish and Papiamento of Aruba and is a Speech Pathologist who completed 2 Doctorates at the same time after getting her children raised and out of the home. I was also raised a very conservative Seventh Day Adventist. My father is a Missionary Minister just as his father was before him….so I have a strong lineage of the Nomadic Missionary, moving from place to place and always experiencing life as the observer or Anthropologist. In our home there was no television allowed, but we could read nearly any book. Our first language was French until we moved to Mexico at age 9 and the language at home changed to English so that we would remain bilingual. I have one older brother who is a nuclear physicist and Jeopardy Champion, haha!
Although my parents may not agree, I can look at my life and see that the way I was raised remains a foundation for my Lifestyle and ethos today. As a Seventh Day Adventist, I was raised vegan and was taught that we should live in community and grow our own foods as the government would one day begin to poison us through foods. I mean, Hmmm… I was also taught to have God as a foundation of my life and to feel the presence of the Divine in every thought and breath. Although as Alice Walker says, I left the physical church for the church of the trees!
— WOMB Nation is an empowering initiative, bringing together the force of womanhood and connecting ourselves to our roots. Can you tell us about your motivations for starting WOMB Nation, and how your community interacts with your offerings?
WOMBNation is my most amazing idea ever! It is a way for even clients who are unfamiliar with the wombsteam practice to have the herbs they need delivered to their doorstep, to steam together with me every New Moon in a monthly rhythm.
Each month I channel and create a beautiful WombSteam Recipe blend that I call my “Plant Medicine Potion Poem” these are put together in collaboration with Oshala Farms, a woman led herbal farm in Grants Pass, OR.
Each month the flowers and herbs are hand harvested, dried, processed and packaged very lovingly in the smallest batches using the often very elaborate Poom Poom potions I channel and conjure.
Creating each monthly blend is a meditative process where I open and channel to receive what is needed for the Collective Womb Space. The blends are unique and use herbs like violet flowers, juniper berries, cinnamon bark, rose petals, lemon rinds, ginger, damiana, and rare magical plants like Self Heal flower…
So your WombSteam potion will arrive at your doorstep in the mail and we steam together via Zoom.
I also offer a Full Moon live check in so that you can ask me any specific questions that arise along the way…and there is a Member rate for Private TEAsessions and consultations.
WOMBNation was born during Pandemic Quarantine Times, when I began to offer the Virtual WombSteam Ceremony so that we could continue to steam together in Community even while trapped in our own homes. The way everything unfolded was so beautiful, because in steaming in your private space, clients could really feel the intimacy of the medicine and also develop their own personal rhythm.
— What are some important lessons you have learnt from your immediate community?
I think the biggest lesson and gift has been the realization that I am not alone on the journey. As a Medicine Womban whose unique gift was awakened with such intensity and trauma, it can often feel that perhaps I am walking the path alone. Yet with every client and every session, whether it is a death, divorce, menopause or miscarriage. There is a Plant Medicine Potion Poem just for that. The answers we need are alive, here in Mother Earth who is our Mother. When I see the resilience of the Womb Carriers I work with I experience a renewed sense of the collective power we have to transmute trials into triumph with the magic of our womb space, the plants and our power to birth.